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May. 26th, 2010

Heavy Hearts

I felt really heavy today. Like that heaviness and dreadfulness you feel when you're just unhappy. Like this foreboarding feeling that the future isn't going to be good. I really haven't felt that in a while. I've felt frustrated, dreadful about others, too busy, etc. but never... for lack of a better word, depressed, in a good bit.

It sorta came in waves, but it came. It used to happen a lot when I didn't know where my life was going. All those years of changing my plans, not knowing what I was doing or where I was going. That feeling was back for a bit. Like you don't know what's wrong and you can't fix it.

I also realized today how long it's been since I wrote in a journal or sketchbook. I always wrote in them though when I was itching to get out emotional drama. Go figures.

Jan. 30th, 2010

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Even before I started realizing it, I think I was meant to do great things. I've had so much support, especially in forming my younger years, that I often never doubted myself. I was instilled with a sense of freedom and confidence that I could do anything.

I guess as soon as I started realizing this fortune, it started to dwindle away. As years go by I see my confidence fading, my opportunities harder to reach, and I wonder if I am strong enough to overcome the obstacles.

Now that I see obstacles in my path will I overcome them, or was I never really strong enough? Was I only able to achieve the things I've done because of the ease of it, the challenge without adversity.

I wonder if I grew up in a different family, if I would even be half of what I am today. I wonder if I would live to see a full life. I wonder right now what will come of me. Because I tasted what success is like, and if I can't continue with it I fear I won't want to continue it at all.

I hate where I am at sometimes. Utterly hate seeing things I do and think and encounter throughout these past few years. It's disheartening and disgusting seeing a body wasted, a life wasted, a life not lived. I'm disgusted seeing myself torn down by others and probably moreso myself.

And then that thought makes it start all over again...

Dec. 6th, 2009

Monster Mask + Eyeball Gloves now for sale!

Fun stuff!
Fun to make.
Fun to wear.


Nov. 27th, 2009

40% off DPM until Sunday!

Get a look at what's been taking up much of my life.

All shirts are $6-$17 with the discount.
Free S&H—Discount shows in cart.
Tell your friends please. Thanks!

Jul. 31st, 2009

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I need to take a step back.

Jul. 11th, 2009

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So I don't think I like where this is all heading...

Feb. 12th, 2009

Portfolio Updated

It's been over a year!
My portfolio is back up.

Going through some older stuff too.
May be printing up some old tee designs again.
Going through some older work and reorging.


Feb. 4th, 2009

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I'm working on getting my portfolio website back up.
It hasn't been online in over a year and I feel like my life has been consumed by DPM and Converse.

I need to do other work, and that portal will be my own site again.
I am working on putting a blog there too.

We recently shot a promo video for the new Dance Party Massacre stuff.
You can watch it above.
I was in China the month of November for Converse.

I feel like I should be more successful and fruitful with all this stuff I've been doing.

Dec. 16th, 2008

DPM 25% Off Sale



Nov. 10th, 2008

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I still really hate stupid myspace clothing companies with their name spread across the front and latching onto every trend possible.

I think I'm gonna sell out.
I have bills to pay.
Money not to lose.

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